I had an awesome week!!

I have to tell you the good news first. I had an absolutely awesome week. I had the best week I think I have ever had!! I stuck to my points like glue. I weighed everything to make sure that I was tracking the right portions sizes and boy did it open my eyes. I made sure I didn't eat all of my 49 weekly points - I had 18 left at the end of my last day for the week. And - and this is the big one - I exercised every single day (twice on Friday because I had my personal training session in the morning and didn't want to have to go out to Curves on Saturday and only had done two sessions so far so went to Curves on Friday arvo, plus I weeded the garden on Saturday and Sunday) and earnt myself a massive 106 exercise points of which I didn't eat a single one!! I was actually soooooo excited to be going to weigh in today. I was running around work all day telling all of the girls what a fantastic week I had had and that I had 124 points racked up that I hadn't eaten and that the result on the scale was going to be huge. I have been patting myself on the back for the past few days - soooooo proud of myself that I have stuck to it so well. I haven't even had my normal evening chocolate fix. I usually use some of my 49 points for a couple of little mini mars or snickers bars or something, because I absolutely adore chocolate. I have not had one single one all week. Not one. Nada. Nothing. None. Nil!!!!

I got to my meeting and almost ran up to the scales I was so excited. I didn't even bother to try and look at the display with bated breath to see if I had been good or not. I stood up so proud with the biggest smile on my face and my chin in the air and when the lady told me to hop off and I watched her writing down the number, I found that I had lost a massive 100g (0.22lbs). Not even half a pound. If I hadn't had people around me I would have burst into tears then and there. I can't believe that after everything I did this week, I didn't even lose my goal for the week. So now I am officially behind by 1.1kg (2.42lbs). So what do I do now? I have to admit the first thought that popped into my head is f#%k it! Why bother?! It doesn't work! I had to sit and wait for the meeting to start though and I was going over everything in my head. What the hell did I do wrong? There are a couple of things that it could be. I have a really old set of scales, and maybe they aren't weighing right? I really think that even if that was the case though, I still should have lost more than I did because I had so many points in bonus that even if my scales are out a bit, I would have had more than enough points to cover it. I am going to get a set of scales from somewhere else though and compare them to see just in case. Maybe I didn't eat enough of my points? Seriously though? I don't think that would be it - I was never really hungry or tired, so I figure I was eating enough, and I made sure I had my daily allowance at least, every day. The only other thing I can think of (and the group leader seems to think this is it) is that I put on muscle, which is quite possible considering I have been back at Curves now for a couple of weeks after a 4 week break. She told me not to beat myself up about it too much and that it would come out in the wash. Easy enough for her to say lol!! I know that I am most probably losing centremetres, but that doesn't help me reach my goal. My goal is 60kg and that is what I want to achieve by New Year's Eve. But I also don't want to stop going to Curves and just do cardio exercise because I want to tone as I go. I can't afford plastic surgery and if I just do cardio I will probably end up with heaps of saggy skin at the end of it. Not for me. So!! I just have to suck it up and get on with it. I am not going to go on a huge binge of everything that I have said no to in the past few weeks - although the thought did cross my mind lol!! I am also not going to stop my exercising or cut down on it. I need to do it and I really don't think that 30 mins to an hour every a day is too much. That is what people should be doing to lead healthy lives and that's what I want to do - lead a healthy life.

So here's to hoping that if I put the same hard work in this week, it will come out in the end and I will make up next week for what I didn't lose this week.

I hope everyone else's week is going ok and I will see less of you and hopefully me next week!!