Still plugging away!

Hi everyone!!

Sorry I haven't blogged for a while - sometimes my life gets so crazy that I wonder how I even find the time to sleep and I think this year there is going to be a lot of that!! I have a lot to get accomplished this year - some stuff I want to do, some stuff I have to do, and some stuff is a bit of both. The weight loss thing this year is one of those things that I want to do and is also something that I have to do.

I have so much I want to do in my life and it just seems that I am held back so much by my weight. So many times I have wanted to do something & not done it because of my size. I know I shouldn't be that way but I am a very shy person at the best of times and even more so when I am overweight. The only real time I have come out of my shell was when I was a size 12 which seems oh so long ago & for such a brief time of my life!! Being "normal" gave me so much more confidence & I was so much more willing to participate in life. I find that being the size that I am, although people try to get me to, I find ways to avoid putting myself out there. I also want to have the time to enjoy a healthy & active life, be around for my kids & be able to do so much more with them. Even just something as simple as going on rides at theme parks with them. I am always the one volunteering to hold the bags - not because I want to, but because I don't FIT on the rides. I don't like to admit that to people because it is SO embarassing, but it is part of my world. It is something that I have to deal with everyday & most people don't even realise. Even situations as simple as going to a bbq can be uncomfortable & embarassing which is why so often I try to find ways to avoid attending. I don't like to sit on plastic outdoor chairs because I am so heavy that they can break & chairs with arms can be a problem too because most often they are not wide enough. Flying is fun too - I have to get my daughter to go and ask for a seat belt extender because the seat belt doesn't fit & I am too embarassed to do it myself. These are things that I haven't told anyone before because it is so humiliating. So I guess if people want to know why I want to & need to lose weight, then these are some of the biggest reasons. There are probably lots more but I think I have enough reason already lol!!

Anyway, I am still plugging away at it & the good news to tell after all the depressing stuff I just churned out is that I have had good weeks the last few weeks since I blogged & have now lost a total of 27.4kg (60.4lbs). My goal for this year is to get to 100kg (220lbs), which will mean I will have lost approx 60kg (132lbs). I won't be at my goal, but I will be over half way which will make it easier for me next year. So far this year I have lost 16.9kg (37.3lbs), so I am on my way to reaching my goal for the year. I am going to really ramp up my efforts for the next few weeks though, because I want to get to the the 30kg (66lbs) by the end of June if I can since that will be the halfway mark. That means I have 6 weeks to lose 13.1kg (28.9lbs). It will be hard & I may not make it but I am sure as heck going to try!!

I hope you are all still plugging away like me. It is not an easy thing to do & it takes an awful lot of hard work & determination, but as long as we just keep plugging away we will all get there in the end.

Good luck & I hope to talk to you all again soon!!