Monday, April 25, 2011

Reasons

I tried to keep Shari's post on top as long as I could.  Her achievement is so fantastic and worthy of celebration! 
But it's time to post something new.  (even though I was hoping Shari would post the next new item. Tee hee)

Recently I was down in the dumps because I hadn't lost weight that week and someone asked my why it's so important to me to lose.  And I actually had to stop and think.  I have never had a good body image.  Even when I should have.  When I was a senior in high school I was probably underweight.  I was busy.  I rarely ate lunch, I had a sensible breakfast, maybe an afternoon snack.  I had an after school job, and an active boyfriend who took me running once in a while.  I ate dinner with my family most evenings.  I was skinny.  I look at some of those pictures and think I may have been a little too skinny.  And I thought I was FAT.  

I know the right reasons to lose the weight.  I will live longer.  I will be healthier.  I'll be able to keep up with my kids.  I'll not have to catch my breath when I'm running up the stairs.    From past experience, I don't think I'll ever be happy with how I look.  Though now I imagine, I'll be pleased if I don't see rolls.  "Where you stand all depends on where you sit". 

So what is the reason?  I guess I'm not sure.  Even when I was skinny, I thought I was fat.  Now that I have room for improvement, I'm happier with the person that I am, even if I'm not happy with the way that I look.  So I'll go along with the "right" reasons to lose weight.  Even if the selfish reason is the one I want... To look good naked.  I want a certain someone to drool when he sees me.... Best reason ever (or best reason of the day, whichever)!  And my newest motivation. 

Here we go again!!!

1 comment:

  1. I reckon that's as good a reason as any lol!! I want to be able to wear a bikini - don't know if I ever would in public, but to even be able to if I had the guts would be so awesome!!

    Luv ya!!

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