OMG!!!

Oh my gosh!! Oh my golly gosh!! Oh my golly golly golly gosh!!! Today I achieved a goal that I didn't even realise I had and I was so happy I cried!! First of all, sorry I haven't blogged for a while. I did actually write a post last week but for some reason the connection was interrupted and then after I had finished it wouldn't actually post. I thought I would very smartly cut and paste into a word document, sign out and in again and paste it back into the blog box, but for some reason it wouldn't let me. I guess it wasn't meant to be, so here's hoping that doesn't happen to me tonight. If you are reading this then I was obviously more successful than last time lol!!

Anyway, back to my news. As you know I go to Curves and at Curves we have a weigh and measure once a month. Today was my "weigh" and measure day. I say "weigh", because since I started my journey back in September 2009, I haven't actually been able to weigh at Curves or at home because we have the same kind of scales and I was too heavy. I would have my measure close to or on my weight watchers weigh in day and let them know the weight the next time I went to Curves. That is something that I haven't told a lot of people because it is so embarassing. I am not going to say the number the scale goes to though lol!! Way too humiliating!!

For the past month I have known that I was getting close to that number bit by bit and for the last couple of weeks even closer. It always seemed just that little bit out of reach. I know you shouldn't weigh yourself every day, and normally I don't and won't. That being said, for about the past week, I have been because I knew I was so close. I just wanted to see the very first day that I got a reading other than "ERROR"!!! I still can't believe that that day was today and I have to say that even while I am typing this - with a whole day gone, that I am once again crying happy tears. I didn't even realise that it would mean so much to me until I got there. Ok now - enough of the blubbering lol!! So - where were we? - oh yes - I hopped on the scales this morning after I had just gotten out of bed, gone to the toilet (because I needed every little bit of help I could get!!) and before even a sip of water had passed my lips. OMG!! I got a reading!! I was so ecstatic!! So then I thought, I wonder if I could get the same result at Curves for my "weigh" & measure? I wondered because for one, different scales can weigh slightly different and I was still very close to getting that "ERROR" reading on my own at home. So I raced off to get changed into my gym clothes and raced back to the scales (because my gym clothes are heavier than my pyjamas - duh!!!) to find to my amazement that although I was even closer to that "ERROR" reading, I still had a number on my scales, if I positioned myself just right lol!! I was so so happy but still not going to get my hopes up too high just in case the ones at Curves weighed heavier than mine. So, I decided I was going to have breakfast AFTER the gym this morning and off we went. I honestly have to say I have never before been so excited to go to the gym lol!!

When I got to Curves I ran in and straight into the toilet lol!! It takes me half an hour to 45 minutes to get to the gym and I wanted to make sure my bladder was empty!! I know I know - TMI - but I just want you to understand how much I wanted this and it really can make all the difference lol!! Then I ran out and up to the scales. I asked if it was ok for me to hop on without my shoes and the lady (Soozie) looked at me as if I had gone nuts. I don't think she realised what was going on at first. She set the scale for me and I hopped on and couldn't believe my eyes. I looked at her with the biggest smile on my face and she still didn't register. I told her to look at the scales and when she saw the number on there she grinned back at me, realisation finally dawning. She wrote down the weight on my file and I hopped off and she gave me a big hug and congratulated me. I told her I was so happy I was crying and she said, "I know - I am too!!" I'm sure everyone on the circuit thought we were nuts because we were hugging and laughing and crying lol!! Then my daughter came over to see what was going on and when I told her she was jumping up and down, and we were hugging, laughing and crying together too!! We were definitely getting some very strange looks lol!!

Even now - STILL CRYING!!!

I am so happy that I have achieved that goal - even though it was a goal that I didn't consciously set. It has given me that little bit more motivation to keep going as well as I have so far this week and to not give into temptation so that my weigh in at weight watchers will be extra good. I am really hoping to hit my 20kgs (44lbs) this week. I was at 18kg (39.7lbs) last weigh in, so it is a little bit of a stretch but still achievable as long as I keep going the way I have for the rest of the week.

Achieving this goal has also reaffirmed to me that all the hard work is definitely worth it. I still have a long way to go, but I am getting there and I WILL GET THERE. I am also determined that I am never going back - I am going to do this and I am going to keep the weight off this time, for the rest of my life.

I hope you are all achieving the goals that you set for yourself either consciously or unconsciously, or that my achievement inspires or motivates you to keep going to get there. I am so proud of myself and so motivated to keep going and I want others to feel that way too. Have a great week everyone and I will let you know how weigh in goes on Thursday!!

Shari