I'm in for it now!

OK.  I broke the news to my Mom that I'm not going to continue WW.  I just need a break from it I think.  The program WORKS if you follow it.  But I haven't been and that is like throwing money out the window. 

I also signed up for Curves.  It looks like something I can do short term.  The ladies all looked like they were having a good time.  And they have added a Zumba class to the lineup.  I might try that once in a while.  The ladies I work with do Zumba and they LOVE it. 

I was disappointed to see the owner and therefore the lady giving me instruction was older than my mother and about as big around as a pencil.  I don't believe for a second that she looks the way she does only from Curves.  My guess is it is mainly genetics.  Someday, I might ask her what her starting weight was.  I think she weighs about 80 pounds now.

And she was more than a little condescending.  It could be that I am a little sensitive, but I felt like she was talking down to me the whole lesson.  This isn't my first time to set foot in a gym.  I've had a trainer before and used all sorts of the equipment in more than my share of gyms.  I do know proper technique and muscle mechanics.  I'm fat because I am lazy.  I guess that most of the women who go in there for the first time don't have that experience and the trainers have to treat everyone like they don't know a thing.   I was being sensitive.  At least I wasn't rude to her.

What I didn't like about Curves was the whole "setting a goal" bit.  You have to sit down with the employee and tell her your goals and let her measure you.  She asked what I *think* I weigh.  I told her 256 pounds.  (It was less that that on my last weigh in, but I weigh in the morning so it should be higher in the evening.).  She gave me a knowing smile and moved on.  Then it came to standing on the scale.  She said "let's see how close you were".  So I stepped on the scale and what do you know.  It said I weigh 256 pounds!  She was astounded.  "No one ever gets it exactly!" 

She asked if I felt any stress.  At that moment the only stress I felt was her asking the questions.  So my answer was "no more than the next person.  Mark 'No'."  She did and she said that she hasn't ever marked that before.  Then she ran down the list of health problems, all of which I said I didn't have.  She asked what medication I was taking.  I answered "none" and her eyes got wide.  "Not even for high blood pressure?".  What?  Just because I am fat doesn't mean I have high blood pressure!!  Again, the answer was "no".  She took my blood pressure.  118/78.  At this point her eyes were wide.  "That is nearly perfect!" (Which tells me that she doesn't know much about blood pressure. nearly?) 

She set my goals for me.  The only goal that I was willing to give her myself was that I want to make it to the top of the hill at Neuschweinstein without being too winded, in June.  She didn't understand that and was frustrated that I didn't tell her that I want to loose 100 pounds.  (the weight will come off as I get my heart in shape.  My heart is what I want to work on now.  I'm going to focus less on the weight and more on how friggin' winded I get at a brisk walk.)  So she set the goals for me.  Something like 30 inches in 6 months.  The inches are a sum of all the measurements, bust, waist, hips, arms, thighs, etc. 

She was frustrated in how I chose to pay my bill too.  I wouldn't let her commit me for a year.  If you sign up for the year you get a $10 monthly discount.  I'm not planning to stay there past 3 months.  I'm not planning to leave either.  But at this moment, I am using this as a jumping off point.  I just want to get started.  Maybe I'll do CrossFit again.  I think I'd like that. 

What I found out last night is that I am HEALTHY!  Even though I'm fat.  And not all fat women can say that.  I left feeling pretty good.  And a little sweaty.  I did get a little work out there.  But I think I can do better.  We will see how this goes. 

Have a great week!