What the heck?!

What the heck happened?!

I was going to Crossfit and had signed up for a nutrition program.  I was getting better at running and feeling great, other than my shoulder.

Then, I decided that I really can't afford to keep going to the nutrition thing.  I was seeing slow progress and spending a lot of money on it.  If I followed the plan that I was on, it should have been easy.  But I didn't stick with it.  I didn't have someone telling me to do it, so I didn't.

Then, football season hit.  I planned ahead and had a freezer full of crockpot meals ready to cook.  I organized a meal swap with other football moms.  I organized a car pool so I only had to drop off or pick up the boys and I was left with plenty of time to get to the gym.  But then, daylight became scarce and the coaches kept pushing the end of practice back and I didn't have enough time to get from the gym to the boys. The coaches got mad if parents were late because they had to sit with the boys, often in the rain this October, and definitely in the cold and dark.  So I cut back on the gym time and only went the nights that practice was scheduled to end later.  And then I cut gym time out all together, because I couldn't get there fast enough and we added a kid to the car pool.

At the same time, my should pain had increased.  I became concerned that I had very big problem and could no longer avoid going to the doctor to have it checked out.  All I could see was dollar sign eyeballs and I don't want to spend my money that way.  My coach asked one of the Crossfit members, who is a doctor (I didn't want to ask while she was off duty) if she would check me out.  She did a few movement tests and pinpointed the exact pain that I was having and reassured me that it wasn't a torn rotator cuff, but was likely a rotator impingement.  That is something that takes time to fix, but no surgery.

I have gained weight. A lot of it.  A stupid amount for the work that I'd put in over the last 3 years.  I've almost undone all that progress.  In 12 weeks.  My winter clothes don't fit.  Because all the bigger clothes that didn't fit me any more as I lost the inches were donated.  I don't have them anymore.  I didn't want to keep fail safe clothes.
I have lost progress.  I tried hanging from the bar in class (Yes, I'm back to regular Crossfit schedule, only every day is scary again), and I could barely do it.  My shoulder hurt and it was hard!
We did Crossfit Total this week, and while I did PR the back squat and the total, I couldn't budge any more than my previous 1RM press, and didn't even touch my 1RM deadlift.

I have a lot of work to do to get back to where I was even three months ago.  And I've already started it.  I'll try to keep everyone posted.